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| bad boys, bad boys, all we want are bad boys |
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I'm definately pretty positive I had a sexy dream about Voldemort last night. How weird is that??
I went to the zoo yesterday with my mom and my sister, which was awesome. And tommorrow I think I'm going to the pumpkin patch with Eric, which will also be awesome. Especially since he agreed to take me to the Sonic out in Lockport (which I did not know existed until recently)!!!
I got The Beatles Rock Band the other day and I must say it's really schweet. I wish I could play it more often, but I can't play it for very long at a time as those games really fuck with my eyes. And Dad's always home watching TV whenever I'm at home. Laaaame.
I really feel like I need to clean the house again. This is getting ridiculous. I'm not the only person who fucking lives here.
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| you're a hot mess and i'm falling for you |
[05 Oct 2009|09:15pm] |
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Let's see, what is new in the life of the Nicole? I'm dating a new fellow, his name is Eric and he is ever so friendly. I'm rather convinced that he is one day going to reveal to me that he's a mormon with 29 wives/gay/dating me to get close to my organs so he may sell them on the blackc market. But in the mean time, he treats me wonderfully.
These self-study courses are killing me--even though I only work like 4 hrs a day since they cut my hours suddenly, I still find myself unable to furnish the time or commitment to this shit. Oh well, too bad now, better suck it up.
I'm super duper excited for fall. I love everything about the fall--from the changing leaves to the cooler weather to the delicious smells and tastes. I can't wait for Halloween either, even though I am yet to have plans.
I think that's about it for this update. Stay tuned for next time. ;)
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| if you're gonna play with fire, then you're gonna get burned |
[30 Aug 2009|09:48am] |
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It's so much more difficult for me to update this thing frequently because there is seldom anything interesting going on in my life.
I asked them for two days off a week at work, since all summer I have been working six days a week. So they did this, but now I only work 20 hours a week?? Is it really that hard to give someone 30-40 hours a week when they're willing to work 5 days a week? And cake slices are on sale for 99 cents (down from like 2.70 or something) so we are getting buttfucked and I don't like it. :(
I still have to buy my school books but I am having a really hard time affording it.
Adam is going to kill me if I go to Mongolian BBQ without him one more time, but every time I want to go he is unavailable. For example, I would totally be up for going tonight, but he works until close. Laaaame.
It's so beautiful outside today. I work 2 to 6, and I have nothing to do before then which sucks because it really is rather nice, if not a little chilly for this time of year.
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| i'll drink more than a sailor i'm sure |
[23 Aug 2009|07:58pm] |
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I keep having dreams about my exboyfriend. Which is weird, because I never really have dreams about people I know. I have really been fixating on the thought of him lately...where is he? How is he? Who has he become? Does he ever wonder about me too? Would he care? Sometimes it drives me nuts. Especially considering we broke up...in like, 2006 and I haven't talked to him since 2007. I wouldn't know how. I'm terrified of him, but I'm so filled with regret over the whole thing that I would give anything just to get coffee with the guy or something. I think about him more than I think he would even guess. Everything still reminds me of him. (And that makes me feel like, a creepy stalker type!!)
Is that normal? Maybe when you go through a breakup you think more about these things. I think I have a tendency to idealize the past...I remember how much I loved him and I get mad that I broke up with him. But I guess the key is that I broke up with him. Something wasn't as picture perfect as I remember. And then I get mad that we couldn't have met each other now, when I was more mature about these things....
Enough about that. I go back to school tommorrow, and I am only taking three classes this semester...they are Evidence and Criminal Procedure, Law Enforcement Management and Administration, and Traffic Control and Administration. Yeah, I'm gonna be bored out of my gourd already, I just know it..!!
Work is going okay. I feel like I really just need a vacation from freaking cake. But at the same time I still want to go into some crazy ace-of-cakes shennanigans.
It occured to me the other day that while I might still be as fucked up as ever, I am a lot less depressed. Just living your life does wonders. :) Doesn't mean I'm happy with everything, but it'll do for now.
Now if only it would stay warm enough for me to go to the dunes again one last time before the end of summer...I'm so sad to see summer go, but I'm a little excited for the changing of the season and zomg pumpkins.
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| i've known you in every life i lived |
[13 Jul 2009|11:00am] |
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I totally and completely forgot about my livejournal for a minute there. Then again, I've been busier than heck lately.
What's new with me? Josh and I are no longer together; I cannot take that insanity anymore and I think I'm better for it. It sucked for a while but that was back in April so I'm working on being alright with everything and I can say I look to the future with some optimism.
Work has been fucking me in the ass and I don't like it. I've worked 6 days a week basically all summer. Yeah the money is good but I'm tired, really tired. Is it that hard to give a girl a break!? I want to go to Chicago and the Michigan dunes and just...enjoy the summer for a little while. It's really bumming me out. :(
The Beastmobile's transmission was dying for quite some time. This resulted in my refusal to drive it after many hillariously embarassing incidents (some involving the car going in drive while in reverse, etc). So I have a new car now. :3 It is a 2004 Hyundai Sonata and it's frickin' bitchin'. Aaaaargh he is glorious.
Other than that, all summer long has been nothing but work work work. And I'm getting ready to go to work right now...12 to 7....mmmmrrrghhhhhh :(
PS HOLY SHIT HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE AAAARRRRRGHHGngjndsj!!!!!!
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| give me something to believe in, a break from the breathing |
[24 Apr 2009|07:34pm] |
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I haven't posted in a long ass time, yet again, mostly because my life really sucks and I don't want to talk about it.
I don't want to get emo, but it's just about all that I'm good at. I really feel like the only way life could throw me any more curveballs is if someone died. And not just a regular death, like, "Well, you remember last week when you bought an Icee? Unfortunately, after you threw it away it got picked up in the dump by a bat with a mad crazy strain of rabies and got a taste of your DNA and loved it so he came after your mother with his horrendous mutant bat claws."
I swear to fucking God that is the next step on things that are going to go wrong.
...but hey, things will get better eventually, right?
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| desolation, devistation |
[05 Feb 2009|06:27pm] |
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Okay, I straight haven't posted in forever and an eternity so I'll recap the most important bits.
Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years were all good....lol.
I'm going to school now. My classes this semester are Human Biology, Speech (wtf), Intro to Criminal Justice Research (WTF!!!), and a law enforcement internship. Everything except for Biology makes me want to kill myself, and even that does a little bit because it's at Romeoville campus, and the only way I can fit it into my schedule is to go to work 7-12, and drive immediately to class from 12:30 to 2. Aaaarrrghhh!!
So I just got placed in my internship today. I'm working at the Shorewood Police Department, night shift, and I start tommorrow. I have to do 240 hours by the end of the semester, and night shift is 7pm to 7am. Luckily, I can come and go as I please as long as it's between those hours. But this shit is gonna SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!! (Lots of exclamation points to enhance the suckitude.)
My aunt pretty much dumped her dog onto us. We babysit her sometimes, but this time she just never took the dog home....so now we have Anya. (Yes, just like my cat. What the hell.) She's so friggin ugly it's cute. She weighs about 357825379857893 lbs and is so fat, that her tail has a fatty tumor looking thing. Wow.
What else is new? Sadly, not much. :*( I still drive the beastman, and he's still retarded, but everyone is surprised he has toughed it out this long. And I discovered this amazing hibiscus febreeze the other day that I regularly molest my car with. That's about all.
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Man I am all different kinds of pissed off today.
So yesterday I voted, and I was proud. So my mom suggests, why don't you go to the Obama rally in Chicago? So I was like, hey, let's do that. I call Josh and he actually sounds pretty enthusiastic about it. I call off work and we leave on the 2:24 train to Chicago. Little Nicole decides to meet us up too.
We get to the rally about 4ish, find a nice spot, and sit down...for many hours. Many many hours. Around 6, Josh starts being a pussy, complaining about how he hasn't eaten anything all day and he's tired and sore and cold and doesn't like being around all these people. Shut the fuck up. Finally, around 9:45, he has bitched so much that we have to leave.
At about 10:10 they announce he has won the presidency, and we miss his entire speech.
I'm still really fucking ticked off about that. Haha. So today I'm significantly more tired, significantly poorer due to work missage, and I missed probably one of the most amazing events evar.
But hey, go Obamaaa :)
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So the Beastman finally took a massive crap on me. I was having a shisty day yesterday--Josh and I got in a massive fight but made up, so I was supposed to go hang out with Adam after I got off work at 8. So I leave work, having just been paid 80 dollars, and was like, "Hey, I'm really sick of my mom having to give me gas money, so I will fill up my tank." (Note that I have only filled my tank TWICE before this.) So I stop at Thortons, spend half of my paycheck, and get ready to go...start the car...put it in drive...and it dies.
What the fuck?! Not okay. So we try to start it again. No. The engine just cranks, doesn't turn over. So I try it again. The gas station attendant tries it like three times. Some random kid who overheard my plight got his older brother, who is pretty good on cars, to come over to the gas station. Mind you, my phone is dead, so I could only call my parents from the phone in the building. (I don't know anyone else's numbers.) So he arrives, and it starts raining. He pokes around at my car and decides it's probably the distributor, since there's no spark to the engine or somethin. That sucks.
They help me put the car in neutral and push it into a parking spot. (Holy shit is a car hard to turn without power steering!!!) I was waiting for my parents to come, rocking back and forth (as I normally do) when an older gentleman saw me and asked if I was okay. Naturally I loled but told him what was up, he said he would go to his house down the street, get some tools, and work on my car.
So my parents came. And the dude came back. And he took off the distributor, figured the timing belt was okay, and saw there was corrosion in the distributor. Apparently, that's the one part of the car that has to be totally dry, so of course it is nonstop raining. He scraped off the corrosion and then we lost this very important spring...of course. So we had to make a new one all ghetto out of a pen spring. Which we almost lost. Finally we put it back on....and the car still wouldn't start!!
Now I don't know much about cars but he pulled out these plugs from the engine. There was oil on all of them. He said there should be none, it should be dry, and it's possible that when the distributor fucked up, so did something else very important and I might need a new motor. So my car is still sitting at Thorton's. I give up. My life sucks.
I didn't even get home until 2 hours after I got off work. Half of my paycheck gone for nothing. And Josh and Adam blew the fuck up out of my phone. That car is very important. It's my lifeline to everywhere.
So what should I do? :(
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| this city's killing me, i want everything |
[02 Oct 2008|01:05pm] |
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I'm so frustrated. Going through old eljay entries just brings back so many memories, some of them good, some of them bad, and some of them headbangingly "I'm going to give myself some .45 caliber aspirin in order to forget them" bad. You just get this burning sense of nostalgia in you and I begin to wish I didn't always have to screw everything up.
But oh wells. I have this horrible rash that was just like "surprise, here I am" on my back and chest. I went to the doctor's and basically she was like "Nobody knows why that happens or what to do about it...it'll go away in 6 weeks at the most" and I was like ghjkahgjngkaj. Especially since my mom is definately convinced it is Lupus (? what now?)
Work is okay and so is school, I suppose. I'm just running on some major burnout.
My anniversary with Josh was really nice. We had a picnic all the way out in McHenry woods, where it is so quiet and so nice. He brought chocolate covered strawberries and champagne and made this shrimp and bread thing on the grill. It was romantic. And then we went over to Kara's house and chilled with her and her boyfriend, which he really enjoyed. I just wish we had the money to do something nicer.
I'm so tight for money I think I'm going to have to wear the same Halloween costume this year. Not a big deal compared with other people's struggles, but it still makes me a little sad. Although I am still excited and hope I can do something fun for Halloween....:o
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